Friday, July 13, 2012

Terima kasih Ayah!

Di pagi Jumaat yang diberkahi, hari dimana Nabi Adam A.S diciptakan, di mana Jumaat digelar Saiyidul Ayyam - penghulu segala hari, marilah kita bersujud syukur, memanjat setinggi-tinggi kesyukuran kepada Allah di atas segala nikmat nya. Bukan hanya kerana sepinggan sarapan pagi tetapi kerana segala nikmat - nikmat sekecil-kecilnya seperti dibangunkan oleh Allah pada pagi ini sehingga nikmat sebesar-besar nikmat iaitu Iman dan Islam, Alhamdulillah ya Rabb, Alhamdulillah.. 


Dan sememangnya sedikit sekali di antara hamba-hambaKu yang bersyukur. 34:13.


Ucaplah syukur, bertahmid memuji nya sedangkan rumput yang kita pijak dan batu yang dilanggar yang kita marahi, mereka tidak putus-putus bertahmid memuji Allah. Tidak malukah kita? Masukkanlah diri kita diantara hambaNya yang sedikit yang mengucapkan syukur kepada Allah, Alhamdulillah..


Di pagi penuh barakah ini, Allah layangkan ingatan ke Malaysia, pada seseorang yang sangat dekat di hati dan tentunya di dalam doa - seorang dan hanya seorang Ayah. Syukurnya diri ini pada Allah memberikan kami  Ayah yang sangat penyayang dan penyabar. Alhamdulillah.. 




Kami di Christchurch April 2012

Umar Al-Khattab pernah berkata, tanggungjawab seorang Ayah ialah memilih ibu yang baik untuk anak-anaknya, memberikan nama yang baik serta mengajar membaca Al-Quran kepada anak-anak. 


Ayah,


Terima kasih Ayah, memilih kepada kami 3 orang ibu yang baik mereka tidak terkata, Emak Siti Hajar, Mama Normah dan Umi Che Kamilah.
Terima kasih Ayah, memberi namaku Fairuz - cahaya permata hijau, Hidayah - petunjuk, Aishah - nama Isteri Nabi s.a.w, Maisarah - kegembiraan, Iqbal - kejayaan, Zahirah - semangat, Adibah - sopan santun dan Ashraf - luhur.
Terima kasih Ayah, berusaha melengkapkan pendidikan kami dari tadika hingga ke universiti.


Terima kasih untuk ketiga-tiga perkara, lengkaplah tanggungjawab Ayah kepada kami dalam kepayahan dan tentunya diiring dengan sejuta satu pengorbanan. Dan,

Terima kasih Ayah, membawa rezeki yang halal untuk kami dari dulu hingga kini.
Terima kasih Ayah, mengajar kami mengucapkan 'I love you' sesama adik-beradik dan saudara-mara tanda penghargaan dan menunjukkan kasih sayang pada mereka sebelum terlambat.
Terima kasih Ayah, mengingatkan kami bahawa semua yang diberi adalah pinjaman semata-mata dari Allah.
Terima kasih Ayah, mengajar kami motto hidup kita: 'hidup adalah untuk orang lain', jadi kami lebih memberi dari menerima.
Terima kasih Ayah, tidak putus-putus menjaga kebajikkan kami dari segi kesihatan dan keperluan yang lain.
Terima kasih Ayah, mencorakkan kami dengan acuan Islam, berasa ihsan dengan manusia.


Dari benih yang baik, terbinalah generasi yang baik, Alhamdulillah.. Siapa lah kami tanpa Ayah. Terima kasih Ayah! :')

Terbaca buku SaifulIslam - Bercinta Sampai ke Syurga minggu lepas memberi tamparan hebat di mana beliau berkata:


Anak-anak beruntung memilik Ibu dan Ayah tetapi 
Ibu dan Ayah belum tentu beruntung memiliki anak-anak. 

Ya Allah, jadikanlah kami aset kepada Mak Ayah Mama Umi dan seluruh keluarga kami menuju syurga kelak, ameen! Jauhkanlah kami dari derhaka kepada mereka, sungguh cinta mereka datang tanpa syarat, tetapi kami? Na'uzubillahi min zaliq.

Dan orang-orang yang beriman yang diturut oleh zuriat keturunannya dengan keadaan beriman, Kami hubungkan (himpunkan) zuriat keturunannya itu dengan mereka (di dalam Syurga); dan Kami (dengan itu) tidak mengurangi sedikitpun dari pahala amal-amal mereka; tiap-tiap seorang manusia terikat dengan amal yang dikerjakannya. At-Tur:21.

Moga Allah berikan kegembiraan yang berpanjangan pada Ayah - di dunia dan akhirat. Eyush sayang Ayah!

Monday, February 7, 2011

I think, I just knew him.

I cherish his love to the family & friends.
I admire his generosity.
I enjoy listening to his beautiful advices.
I like his speech, speaks, words & talks.
I appreciate his patience and hard works.
I adore his passion towards his full-time job.
I treasure his unique smile.
I admire the way he looks at the elders & children and how he welcomes their attendance.

Above all the feelings I have for him;

I just realized that, I do love him a lot. In fact in my nearly 23 years of life-time, this is our first photo together, just the two of us;


Isn't it adorable? ;)


We don't have anything in common. We never travel together and have a long chit chat. I remember he once said to his friend;

"Dalam ramai-ramai anak, si Fairuz ni la paling tak manja"

Hehe. It is true indeed. I couldn't hug him spontaneously like what my other siblings always did, it's always him who starts the conversation, it's always him who starts hugging me. And then I would excitedly response.

The most thing I'm crazy about him is his generosity. And of course his kindness.

"Harta kita terbahagi kepada tiga. Makan kita, pakai kita iaitu keperluan kita & yang terakhir is kebajikkan. Kalau bukan kita habiskan untuk tiga perkara ini, rugilah kita."

He always wanted to be the upper hand, when he received more, he will certainly give more. His acts remind me of how generous Rasulullah and his companions. He might be the most generous man on earth I've found in front of my eyes.

I always be motivated by his supports, advices and financial of course, hehe.

"Ayah suka Eyush dan Eshah buat non-profitable activities macam pergi usrah, buat kerja-kerja kebajikkan sebab Ayah pun buat benda yang sama cuma cara kita berbeza."

And sometimes when I was clinging at home for too long, he would ask "Hai, tak pergi usrah ke?", hihi.

For giving us freedom in doing something that can benefit others, he is very considerate even when I didn't really spent my time with the family.

Here's a story that made us close: At the end of last year, I had a 3-long-days argumentation with him. It was because of a very tiny little trouble I had. I assumed he didn't understand what I'd been through, what was my condition about.

How could he possibly, lowered down his ego as a man and of course as a dad when I was embrace to my egoism tightly, he came and hug me closely. I could see the tears in his eyes and he said;

"Manusia datang dan pergi dalam hidup kita. Kalau ada, ada la, kalau takde, takpe la. Nak buat macam mana kan? Eyush kena ingat yang dalam hidup Eyush, Eyush tak mampu mengubah dunia tapi Eyush mampu memberikan yang terbaik untuk adik-adik, sepupu-sepupu yang berharap pada Eyush. Ayah bukan ada selama-lamanya.

Buat masa sekarang,
focus on your degree. Ace it. Kelak, Eyush boleh sumbang pada orang yang memerlukan. Kan Allah kata "Hablum Minallah, Hablum Minnannas."

There's lots more. Lots, lots more. At that time, I hugged him. As tight as I can. I shouldn't have done that to him, I begged for his forgiveness and he forgave me at ease. Because he always say;

"Ingatlah, apa-apa yang korang buat, kasih sayang Ayah mengatasi segalanya".

Tonight, I cried again in my after-Isya' du'a, pray hard to Allah to take care of him, because I miss him a lot, like a lottt!

Listening to him, now becoming my favorite hobby. Observing at how workaholic he is, is one of my enthusiasms. And be all ears to his words & advices to us and his friends is a knowledge of life.

One definite day, I want to follow what he did to his mom, his dad and his family. I want to be generous like him. I want to be like him. Exactly like him whether I knew it is possible but I'll try hard.

And one day, insyaAllah I want to be like what my sister said;

"I wish me and my husband could educate our children like what you've done to us, Ayah"

Though I repeatedly say "Terima kasih Ayah", it wouldn't be enough.

Nothing can pay his absolute efforts together with pure pain to make sure we have a better life. Thus, the very least that I can do now, then and forever insyaAllah is to keep praying for him, is to keep begging to Allah SWT to always forgive him and give him happiness and joys in dunya and akhirah. Ameen.

To make a big happy family like this, put smiles in our face, again "TERIMA KASIH, AYAH!"

Tengok tu sempat lagi on-call cakap dengan customers ;)

Ayah, you are the greatest gift from Allah SWT to us. I admire and love you Ayah. A lot! Eternally insyaAllah :)

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Belum masanya

Sekarang belum masanya bercakap tentang itu. Kerana hal itu hanyalah apa yang di angan-angan kan. Kerana masih banyak benda yang perlu dirangcang dan difikirkan.

Sekarang bukan lah masanya bercakap tentang itu, takut nanti terabai pula cita-cita dan impian mahu berbakti kepada ibu dan ayah serta adik-adik dahulu.

Mungkin selepas belajar pun belum masanya bercakap tentang hal itu, kerana asyik dalam pelukan & keagungan cinta yang Agung. Mabukkan pahala dari Nya, mahukan redha dan berkatNya sebelum berjumpa kekasih-kekasih di jannahNya.

Sekarang adalah masanya untuk aku berusaha bersungguh-sungguh untuk mencapai target Muslimah sejati. Soleh wa musleh. Kerana mana mungkin si dia yang soleh mahu perempuan selebet seperti ini untuk membina rumah tangga idaman hati.

Oleh itu, jangan persoalkan lagi hal yang sama. Kerana sekarang bukanlah masanya untuk bercakap tentang hal itu.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Aim, focus & shoot!

Assalammualaikum,

Hey you, hey dear first class deg with HONS, please let me go for you, let me reach you. Let me HAVE you. Since;

you are my:

ticket to grab a great job
ticket to get a high income
ticket to infaq to my family & relatives
ticket to infaq to orphans & those in need

Please, I won't be a fool again. 2nd year results were indeed gave me a strict & obvious lesson.

Accounting & other hard papers in future, let us all work very well together. For Allah's bless we strive. For bright future we wanna live in.

Indeed this is truly for You, my dear Allah. ILYSM.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

I ll go mad cow in Palmy if..

Assalammualaikum,

Anak-anak itu sungguh penyejuk hati, biarpun bukan anak sendiri, tapi sungguh sejuk hati ini melihat mereka bertatih, berlari even bertumbuk-tumbukkan.

Here are some of anak-anak postgrads yang selalu buat hati meruntun merindui mereka. Keletah masing-masing takkan dapat tertulis, ianya tersemat dalam hati melalui pengalaman yang amat-amat, sangat-sangat berharga.



Degree is one sure thing, another thing that should be grabbed here is SILATURRAHIM.

I'll
definitely go mad cow in Palmy if they aren't here!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Berubah. Mahu?


....


Tetapi barang siapa yang bersabar & memaafkan, sungguh yang demikian itu termasuk perbuatan yg mulia [42:43]


Saya mahu berlapang dada, punyai himmah yang tinggi dan tidak akan pernah futur. Saya sayang Rasulullah jadi saya mahu jadi seperti baginda. Cool je walau apapun yang terjadi.

Jadi, sahabat-sahabat, supportlah, remindlah each other. Kerana :

Sesungguhnya orang-orang beriman itu bersaudara, kerana itu damaikanlah antara kedua saudaramu (yang berselisih) dan bertaqwalah kepada Allah agar kamu mendapat rahmat [49:10]

Dan;

Dan, tetaplah memberi peringatan, kerana sesungguhnya peringatan itu bermanfaat bagi orang-orang mukmin [51:55]

Saya mahu jadi tabah seperti Muhajirin dan berlapang dada dan ithar seperti Ansar. Saya mahu jadi kuat seperti Ahlul Badr. Kerana saya mahu sangat masuk Firdaus yang harganya bukan la rendah. Yang harganya bukanlah boleh dibayar dengan apa-apa pun yang ada di bumi dan seisinya. Saya mahu berubah, mahu banyak beramal.

Yang menciptakan mati dan hidup, untuk menguji kamu, siapa di antara kamu yang terbaik amalannya (ikhlas dan tepat). Dan Dia Maha Perkasa, Maha Pengampun [67:02]

Kalau begitulah, apa kata jikalau kita berlumba? ;)

Dan setiap umat mempunyai kiblat yang dia menghadap kepadanya. Maka berlumba-lumbalah kamu dalam kebaikkan. Di mana saja kamu berada, pasti Allah akan mengumpulkan kamu semuanya. Sungguh, Allah Mahakuasa atas segala sesuatu [02:148]

Kenapa nak rushing pulak kalau nak berubah? Kita kan muda lagi, enjoy la dulu. Tapi, Allah kata:

Dan setiap umat mempunyai ajal (batas waktu). Apabila ajalnya tiba, mereka tidak dapat meminta penundaan atau percepatan sesaat pun [07:34]

.. "Bilakah (Kiamat) akan terjadi?" Katakanlah, "Barangkali waktunya sudah dekat" [17:51]

Berubah sorang-sorang jelah. Kenapa perlu kecoh-kecoh?

Sekali lagi;

Dan, tetaplah memberi peringatan, kerana sesungguhnya peringatan itu bermanfaat bagi orang-orang mukmin [51:55]

Demi Masa. Sungguh manusia kerugian, kecuali orang-orang yang beriman dan mengerjakan kebajikkan seta saling menasihati untuk kebenaran dan saling menasihati untuk kesabaran [103:1-3]

Dan kerana saya sayang kalian! :)

Diriwayatkan daripada Anas r.a: “ Nabi Muhammad SAW pernah bersabda: ” Tidak ada seorang pun di antara kalian dipandang beriman sebelum ia menyayangi saudaranya sesama Muslim seperti halnya ia menyayangi dirinya sendiri.


Ayuh! Shift your paradigm!




Thursday, March 4, 2010

Sadaqah & us.

It was a sunny fine day when I was in MMA (Manawatu Muslim Association)'s stall helped them selling Arabic Coffee comes with 3 seeds of dates for $1. An Esplanade Day which as usual, had heaps of stalls selling things and also companies making kind of fun-fairs specially for kids. Many parents brought their children to play over and they themselves wanna have a look at the stalls and be relax after a long weekdays while at the same time, tighten the parents-children bond.

Me and Fatimah, an Egypt girl were advertising about Arabic Coffee which is great to have it with dates. Even though I do not like the taste because it contains spices and herbs which is very unacceptable for me. Special thing about it is it's lack of sugar, ones should bite date first before take a sip. Many English people came over our small, round table and we received lots of comments about the coffee. Most of them love it and one of them even asked Fatimah where to buy it. And two funny Kiwi mothers asked where to get the silver water pot that we'd on the table!

Fuhhh.. It was very tiring yet another happy and fun experience I'd gain.

Here the real story I really wanna tell you, there was a non-Muslim woman who gave me $2 and then, I wanna give her change back, which what I supposed to do. But then, she said, " That's okay. You can save it for your donation.". Masya-Allah! Can you see what I wanna tell you here?

If you can't, please let me explain.

Question: Although we are Muslims, do we have that kind of akhlaq (something you do without thinking/ spontaneous acts)?

There as many verses from Holy Quran that say about sadaqah. Too many. It's like Allah S.W.T speaks directly to us to be generous and giving properties He lends us to either needy or not.

One verse that's give a strong hit at my face is :

The likeness of those who spend their wealth in the Way of Allah, is as the likeness of a grain (of corn); it grows seven ears, and each ear has a hundred grains. Allah gives manifold increase to whom He pleases. And Allah is All-Sufficient for His creatures' needs, All-Knower. (Al-Baqarah ;2:261)

Allah-Akhbar!

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The more we donate, the wealthier we'll become! It's like a plot which Allah sets for us. Quoting from Sis Zabrina's Life is An Open Secret 2nd book:

Work --> Gain --> Donate --> Wealth --> Work --> Gain --> Donate --> Wealth --> Work .. ..

Sorry if it's wrong or something..

Things I want to stress here is; don't be stingy. Give people everything you have like what Ansars did to Muhajirins. Because whatever we have right here, right now are not ours. Its just something Allah lends to us so that we can give to others. Its like we are the medium to give anyone that need our helps and test us whether we are willing or not, without them asking us to give our money from our salary or properties to our own family like what is says in verse below:

And give to the kindred his due and to the Miskin (poor) and to the wayfarer. But spend not wastefully (your wealth) in the manner of a spendthrift. (Al-Isra'; 17:26)

So, guys, let be generous. Stop wasting on stuffs that are unnecessary. And, please, please, please stop being stingy. Plus, people will respect us even more. After all, there is nothing, absolutely nothing we have to lost for right?

And because (read the bold words) ..

Hakim ibn Hizam narrated that the Prophet (s.a.w.s.) said: “The upper hand is better than the lower hand, (i.e., he who gives charity is better than him who takes it). One should start giving first to his dependents. And the best object of charity is that which is given by a wealthy person (from the money which is left after his expenses.) And whoever abstains from asking others for some financial help, Allah will give him and save him from asking others, Allah will make him self-sufficient.” (Bukhari, Vol. 2, Hadith 508)


Take this as a challenge, if non-Muslims can do it so do us :)